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Post by DreadPirateMike on Aug 8, 2019 16:17:46 GMT -5
There was a definite comfort to be found in anonymity. Most people knew it well, even if they couldn’t necessarily isolate the feeling in particular amidst all the others swirling about the private maelstrom that was their consciousness. More often than not, even those who would otherwise be considered brave and strong were driven, or rather held back by an instinctive need to hold on to that comfort. Even at the expense of wealth, power, and all the other aspirations that were always spoken of as virtually universal cravings, they would prefer to stay with the crowd and remain “just one of the guys”. The price of stepping out ahead, all that added responsibility and scrutiny, was just too much.
Jedi were no different. If anything, they embraced that comfort all the more tightly. They were trained from childhood to calm the maelstrom, and to dwell on anonymity in its purest possible form: unity with all things in the Force. What’s more, while it wasn’t specifically anathema to the Jedi teachings, the ambition which drove those few natural leaders was not exactly a core value either.
At least, that was Jaidan’s experience. Authoritative, perhaps, only for his own unique case, but as he was at present the only audience for his wise and learned counsel, it sufficed.
He took the responsibilities of the Jedi Order very seriously. They all did, no matter how flippant a demeanor some had chosen to cultivate. Indeed, Jaidan could think of no compelling reason to expose oneself to the Trials otherwise, never mind where they would find the resolve to actually pass. And yet, the sheer magnitude of what was expected of them, and by how many was more daunting still if you let yourself dwell on it. He doubted that even the wisest and most dutiful old Master could truthfully claim they did not feel the strain of it from time to time.
That doubt, he might call authoritative; he had BEEN one of those wise and dutiful old masters. A seat on the High Council had meant many things. Doors suddenly open to him in the halls of power. Instant recognition throughout the Temple as the newest face of all they were supposed to represent. A good deal of pride, of course. And accompanying it all, a new appreciation for how simple his life had been when he was just another man among thousands with a robe and a laser sword.
But he’d not become so wise, it seemed, that the Force didn’t still have some surprises for him. He’d been plagued by a strange restlessness of late, and he’d known right away that it wasn’t simply uncertainty about the quality of his leadership or the upset habits of a wandering Knight who’d spent decades traveling the stars beholden mostly to himself. He’d meditated on the matter, both in the usual way and in his own. And in time, the Force had proven forthcoming in a way it seldom had for him.
Onin. Darth Aurelius. Lord of the Cult of Ascension. Well before the man had earned most of these lofty titles, Jaidan had known that their paths were intertwined in some fashion. How closely and to what end, he knew not, but he believed the Force had some design for them, and the jungles of Cilpar had not been where they’d find an end to it. Nor, for him, was the high and stately Council chamber.
Jaidan suspected that as a warrior, he was at his peak right now, his skill with a blade and his knowledge of the Force as advanced as they’d ever be while still accompanied with the strength of relative youth. Perhaps that was the source of his urgency? Did fate require that he meet his rival again before he was too old? Was the will of the Force really that blunt? He’d find out in time, he supposed. But he needed to prepare for that day. He needed to understand his enemy better. And he couldn’t do that adequately from the stifling comfort of the Temple.
A High Councilman of the Jedi Order could not simply pick up and go traipsing about the spaceways on such an errand, not when it lacked any clear duration. So, he’d resigned his seat. Whether permanently, that was up to the Council, and he’d learn that in the proper time as well. For now, he wasn’t losing any sleep over it. Rather, he’d been allowing himself to experience the good old days again. Going wherever the mission took him, to places where a brown hood may or may not suggest a Jedi, but nobody knew him at a glance.
That was coming to a close now, he suspected. The derelict station he was approaching lay in open space. If anyone was aboard, and they had any sensors at all at their disposal, then they’d already seen him coming, and more likely than not knew exactly WHO was coming. It wasn’t as though he was making any particular attempt to conceal himself now. He felt a tad exposed, of course, a feeling backed up by the very real possibility of significant danger, but he had no complaints. Tracking down his quarry had been a lengthy and difficult quest, and he knew he’d finally caught a break in the form of a particularly transparent liar. The liar in question had sent out a long-range transmission shortly after claiming never to have heard the name he’d uttered, but Jaidan had already asked a friend in the SIS to put a trace on his holo frequency.
And that trace had led him here, to a deserted hunk of desh and plasteel which had once serviced mining operations in a nearby system’s inner asteroid belt. When the mines had run dry, centuries ago, it had evidently proven the cheapest course of action to simply strip out anything with any resale value and leave it there. Jaidan was chagrined to admit he’d not given the matter too much thought, but places like this were legion. Between stations like like this, the actual asteroid installations, planetside variants and everything in between, the galaxy’s lowlife population wouldn’t be hurting for hideouts any time soon. A wonder, really, that space pirates and their ilk were ever successfully tracked down at all.
Roused from his thoughts by the soft clanghiss of a computerized docking procedure completing itself, he rose with harnessed purpose from his seat and made for the airlock.
“And now, Kamirille, let us have words.”
Jedi were no different. If anything, they embraced that comfort all the more tightly. They were trained from childhood to calm the maelstrom, and to dwell on anonymity in its purest possible form: unity with all things in the Force. What’s more, while it wasn’t specifically anathema to the Jedi teachings, the ambition which drove those few natural leaders was not exactly a core value either.
At least, that was Jaidan’s experience. Authoritative, perhaps, only for his own unique case, but as he was at present the only audience for his wise and learned counsel, it sufficed.
He took the responsibilities of the Jedi Order very seriously. They all did, no matter how flippant a demeanor some had chosen to cultivate. Indeed, Jaidan could think of no compelling reason to expose oneself to the Trials otherwise, never mind where they would find the resolve to actually pass. And yet, the sheer magnitude of what was expected of them, and by how many was more daunting still if you let yourself dwell on it. He doubted that even the wisest and most dutiful old Master could truthfully claim they did not feel the strain of it from time to time.
That doubt, he might call authoritative; he had BEEN one of those wise and dutiful old masters. A seat on the High Council had meant many things. Doors suddenly open to him in the halls of power. Instant recognition throughout the Temple as the newest face of all they were supposed to represent. A good deal of pride, of course. And accompanying it all, a new appreciation for how simple his life had been when he was just another man among thousands with a robe and a laser sword.
But he’d not become so wise, it seemed, that the Force didn’t still have some surprises for him. He’d been plagued by a strange restlessness of late, and he’d known right away that it wasn’t simply uncertainty about the quality of his leadership or the upset habits of a wandering Knight who’d spent decades traveling the stars beholden mostly to himself. He’d meditated on the matter, both in the usual way and in his own. And in time, the Force had proven forthcoming in a way it seldom had for him.
Onin. Darth Aurelius. Lord of the Cult of Ascension. Well before the man had earned most of these lofty titles, Jaidan had known that their paths were intertwined in some fashion. How closely and to what end, he knew not, but he believed the Force had some design for them, and the jungles of Cilpar had not been where they’d find an end to it. Nor, for him, was the high and stately Council chamber.
Jaidan suspected that as a warrior, he was at his peak right now, his skill with a blade and his knowledge of the Force as advanced as they’d ever be while still accompanied with the strength of relative youth. Perhaps that was the source of his urgency? Did fate require that he meet his rival again before he was too old? Was the will of the Force really that blunt? He’d find out in time, he supposed. But he needed to prepare for that day. He needed to understand his enemy better. And he couldn’t do that adequately from the stifling comfort of the Temple.
A High Councilman of the Jedi Order could not simply pick up and go traipsing about the spaceways on such an errand, not when it lacked any clear duration. So, he’d resigned his seat. Whether permanently, that was up to the Council, and he’d learn that in the proper time as well. For now, he wasn’t losing any sleep over it. Rather, he’d been allowing himself to experience the good old days again. Going wherever the mission took him, to places where a brown hood may or may not suggest a Jedi, but nobody knew him at a glance.
That was coming to a close now, he suspected. The derelict station he was approaching lay in open space. If anyone was aboard, and they had any sensors at all at their disposal, then they’d already seen him coming, and more likely than not knew exactly WHO was coming. It wasn’t as though he was making any particular attempt to conceal himself now. He felt a tad exposed, of course, a feeling backed up by the very real possibility of significant danger, but he had no complaints. Tracking down his quarry had been a lengthy and difficult quest, and he knew he’d finally caught a break in the form of a particularly transparent liar. The liar in question had sent out a long-range transmission shortly after claiming never to have heard the name he’d uttered, but Jaidan had already asked a friend in the SIS to put a trace on his holo frequency.
And that trace had led him here, to a deserted hunk of desh and plasteel which had once serviced mining operations in a nearby system’s inner asteroid belt. When the mines had run dry, centuries ago, it had evidently proven the cheapest course of action to simply strip out anything with any resale value and leave it there. Jaidan was chagrined to admit he’d not given the matter too much thought, but places like this were legion. Between stations like like this, the actual asteroid installations, planetside variants and everything in between, the galaxy’s lowlife population wouldn’t be hurting for hideouts any time soon. A wonder, really, that space pirates and their ilk were ever successfully tracked down at all.
Roused from his thoughts by the soft clanghiss of a computerized docking procedure completing itself, he rose with harnessed purpose from his seat and made for the airlock.
“And now, Kamirille, let us have words.”