Post by Talau the Ever-Lurking on Oct 22, 2008 3:30:06 GMT -5
((i think we reached the lemon juice in the past three replies...lol))
I'm not sure any more Vex. I see good in you, but every time I catch a glimpse you rip it away and hide it again. You confuse me more than anything else. One moment you're nothing but a pile of anger and ill will towards all, the next you're smiling and laughing...showing you have something more than just some heartless, soulless being, some monster. I'm not sure now if the good I see in you is just an act. If it is...then....
She shook her head.
No. I won't even entertain the idea that what I see is wrong. To me the world has very few 'greys' to it...things have always been black and white, and not by my choice.
She wasn't making sense...taking a breath she forced herself to calm down a bit more, stuffing the feelings deeper in her. She'd pay for it later tonight, she was sure, but for now it would get things done.
What part have you acted? That of someone who cares. Either you truly do care on some level, or you are a very good actor. I can typically tell the difference, even in jedi....eyes don't lie.
How is your honesty worse? It's worse because now I doubt you. I doubt what I saw...what I know I saw....and in that I can no longer trust you....and for some reason...that hurts.
As for what lie? It's too late to go back now, you can't take back what you've said...you can't make the doubt go away...not easily....but if all this 'caring' was strictly for your own benefit, well, I would much rather you make me believe that you cared about my well being simply because I am alive, and you have the power to help me, rather than telling me the truth and making me feel like a scrap of metal you're preparing to put in the fire to mold....something....worthless.
But then again...who am I to you? Right? Just another stepping stone on your path to healing. Well, I'll tell you one thing I've learned by interacting with you Vex....even if you do find a way to heal your body....unless you start thinking differently about others....you'll never be able to heal your heart or your soul. Though, maybe you don't care.....but.....
She sighed again, this time stepping away and sitting down heavily in her chair. Aunna put a hand to her head and winced at the pain she could feel....letting out a hoarse laugh, she shook her head. It was just like always....she saw something no one else did, even through the pain he caused her.
...but I do care....and I wish you would think twice before losing yourself completely.
With that Aunna pulled the papers toward her once more, though she did nothing but stare at them blankly.
I'm not sure any more Vex. I see good in you, but every time I catch a glimpse you rip it away and hide it again. You confuse me more than anything else. One moment you're nothing but a pile of anger and ill will towards all, the next you're smiling and laughing...showing you have something more than just some heartless, soulless being, some monster. I'm not sure now if the good I see in you is just an act. If it is...then....
She shook her head.
No. I won't even entertain the idea that what I see is wrong. To me the world has very few 'greys' to it...things have always been black and white, and not by my choice.
She wasn't making sense...taking a breath she forced herself to calm down a bit more, stuffing the feelings deeper in her. She'd pay for it later tonight, she was sure, but for now it would get things done.
What part have you acted? That of someone who cares. Either you truly do care on some level, or you are a very good actor. I can typically tell the difference, even in jedi....eyes don't lie.
How is your honesty worse? It's worse because now I doubt you. I doubt what I saw...what I know I saw....and in that I can no longer trust you....and for some reason...that hurts.
As for what lie? It's too late to go back now, you can't take back what you've said...you can't make the doubt go away...not easily....but if all this 'caring' was strictly for your own benefit, well, I would much rather you make me believe that you cared about my well being simply because I am alive, and you have the power to help me, rather than telling me the truth and making me feel like a scrap of metal you're preparing to put in the fire to mold....something....worthless.
But then again...who am I to you? Right? Just another stepping stone on your path to healing. Well, I'll tell you one thing I've learned by interacting with you Vex....even if you do find a way to heal your body....unless you start thinking differently about others....you'll never be able to heal your heart or your soul. Though, maybe you don't care.....but.....
She sighed again, this time stepping away and sitting down heavily in her chair. Aunna put a hand to her head and winced at the pain she could feel....letting out a hoarse laugh, she shook her head. It was just like always....she saw something no one else did, even through the pain he caused her.
...but I do care....and I wish you would think twice before losing yourself completely.
With that Aunna pulled the papers toward her once more, though she did nothing but stare at them blankly.
