Post by Muffinzky on Dec 1, 2018 5:25:21 GMT -5
Bones , the hangar of the Exchange, by noon.
The apartment was quiet.
The only thing that could be heard was music in the background. Notes of string instruments flowed between the walls and made itself heard above the vibrating hummmm of shuttles flying by somewhere in the skies above.
In the middle of the room a fair young woman danced around with a seemingly invisible partner, the movements of her hips slow and swaying. She was wearing a black semi-transparent babydoll dress, decorated with lace. – The one she had slept in. The dark wavy hair fell freely upon her shoulders, and she moved as in trance, unaffected by how crazy it may have looked.
Because no one else was there. The strings neared an end, and when they faded out, she curtseyed the invisible partner, pulling out in an imaginary long dress.
Then the strings started over.
As the slaver strolled over to the table, Refira dumped down in a chair. She took a sip of the tea cup and leaned further back against the chair to get comfy, holding her pinky finger out in the air as she was taught many years ago – a sign of an etiquette finer than those of her surroundings. She inhaled the scent of the spices in the tea: Sweet, like liquorice and a hint of something green. It bought back memories and made her smile. It was a rare occurrence that she could savour such taste on Nar Shaddaa. Not since she put her life on Hapes behind. So she let these moments of peace and quiet enter the core of her being and take her back to another time, another place.
While taking another sip, she picked up her datapad from the table. On it were faces – profiles and little notes and descriptions she had added to the newest “arrivals” in the Exchange.
Like a god, Refira swiftly decided their fate after an analysis of their abilities. She was fair, if she was to say it herself. The money she required for them were in a fine equivalent with the skills they could offer and their state of being – their health, mentally and physically. As well as their experience.
Individuals or species that had an aura of grace and beauty were being assigned as entertainment and were some of the more expensive slaves. Muscular or strong individuals could be used as guards, if they were of their best behaviour… Or interesting lovers.
Were the slaves both ugly, oafish and showed aggressive behaviour, they would be assigned to the category of hard manual labour until they died of exhaustion. Such beings could not be sold. No one wanted them. Or if she found them especially annoying – extermination. But that was the least of what she wished for. Extermination of slaves was an expensive waste of resources.
Tap tap, tap tap.
Acceptable… not acceptable. She swiped right, she swiped left. An extermination approval placed a large red cross upon their face. Her long nails danced across the screen, and the calm demeanour of her person as well as the music showed no regret… Then she stopped.
A young teenager, a blonde appeared on the screen. A deep sting planted its thorns in her chest. She swallowed a lump… Why was this still affecting her? This young girl of all the ones she handled every day.
Refira took a deep breath. Sat up with her back stiff. She closed her eyes and exhaled deeply. The scream was still echoing in her mind. It was only a couple days ago…
“I DON’T WANNA GO BACK! YOU CAN NEVER MAKE ME GO BACK TO HIM!”
She had run away… From a customer.
“You will do as I say. And you WILL. Calm. Down!”
She was captured and brought back to the claws of Refira.
The customer had, despite the contract with the Exchange, despite Refira’s clear description of how he should treat such a fine specimen, he had beaten her… Mistreated her. Starved her. But a deal was a deal. The Exchange had received their money. Refira got to live another day with a full stomach and blood on her hands.
“No, NEVER!”. The blonde tried to pull away from Refira, but the chain restricted her from running away once more. Tears streamed down her freckled, heart-shaped face in panic.
“YES! Forever!”, Refira hissed back.
A rusty door creaked open. The girl was pushed into a humid, dark cellar by Refira. She hit her back against the wall, the air punched out of her lungs by the impact. Then the door was slammed shut behind her.
“You can stay here until you come to your senses” the Hapan woman growled coldly.
By some sort of unbeatable spirit, the girl quickly got up and ran to the prison bars of the door.
“I’ll do anything! Anything! Please help me”.
Refira shook her head.
“It’s to no use, hun. Don’t waste your breath. He’ll be here soon”.
Then she turned around on her heals, leaving the celle. Her boots echoed, until they could be heard no more.
In the distance the screams of the girl grew more faint.
…
When Refira returned an hour later, she had a plate with a sandwich and water with her. She could hear metallic rattling. When she walked in front of the door there was no voice in there. Instead, when she moved a light source into the room, she could see the shadow of the girl.
Dangling…
Possessed by some sort of creative devil, the girl had actually managed to hang herself in her own chain.
Refira just stood there. No visible expression on her face. She didn’t make an effort to take the girl down. Instead she walked out of the corridor with an empty look in the ice blue eyes.
So many days later, the stone face was still intact.
Why was this still affecting her?
…
Oh yeah. That was right. The girl looked familiar. Like her sisters… The twins. They would be her age now, wouldn’t they? The memories were foggy.
Thinking about it… Did they even remember her? Had they moved on at home? After so many years, it would – after all – only be natural to believe that Refira was dead.
Were they well?
Were they being forced against their will to marry someone that didn’t suit them?
Like puppets controlled by a puppeteer, they would have no saying in the matter. The girl didn’t have any saying in the matter. And she chose the only escape she could. Refira didn’t have any saying in the matter back then. And now, she was no longer the puppet, but the master of her own destiny… and that of others.
Nevertheless, she didn’t have any choice. In this world it was control – or be controlled.
But she remembered how it felt to be a puppet. And somewhere inside her body, that connection made her feel very ill.
Did they miss her?
Another lump forced its way up her throat. She swallowed it, held it back. But holding it back didn’t help. The stone face was still there, as she opened her eyes. Though, the feeling broke free. It manifested itself, and a shiny pearl of water ran down her cheek.
The hurt and homesickness became interrupted abruptly.
-PING-. A small icon popped up in the corner of her datapad. You've got mail.
She dried her eyes with the back of her hand and forced the feeling back into the depts of her body. After a couple of minutes, there was no trace of any moral hangovers. Only redness in the whites of her eyes remained.
She read the message. It was from a regular. The representative had some complaints regarding one of the latest purchases, and he requested a meeting. Refira agreed.
When she walked over to the mirror she stopped. Caressed her face. She felt her fingers across the same patterns as she had cut into her flesh back then. It was gone, but she remembered it clearly, as if it happened yesterday. It was a part in the road she travelled to get here. This weird double-edged sword that was the freedom over own body and life she had always longed for. But somehow… she still felt captive.
This was her: Vulnerable, soft with her body almost bare. The things she tried to hide. Her hopes, her dreams, her pain. Barely anyone knew the person that was Refira and the sacrifices she had made to get where she was. Her history.
She laid her arms around her waist, as if giving herself a soft embrace. The person they knew was Filtz. The woman with the whip. Biting her lip, she remembered how the alias came to be so many years ago.
“HEY YOU! And who might you be?”
Back then she didn’t know any answer. The only thing she knew was the acidic, boiling self-hatred that threatened to swallow her alive from the inside. She felt guilty. For hurting the lives of others on purpose. She felt disgusting for allowing men control her life in order to get through another day in this dark hell hole. She looked at her hands, smudged by blood that was not her own and soil from the ground.
She felt... filthy.
“Filtz”, she replied.
With firm determination, she straightened her posture, putting her hands to her hips and spreading her legs to ground her senses and make ready for whatever the day would bring her way. Facing herself in the mirror, she re-embraced the thought that had traced her mind so many times: There was no space for Refira on Nar Shaddaa. Only the person she had become, the one they all could see.
She exhaled deeply, sliding the babydoll dress down her body. It fell to the floor. To give the last push she whispered the lines of an old song that came to mind… breathlessly, with a slight melody.
She started to braid her hair tightly in fast wrenching strokes.
“But I won’t cry for yesterday”.
The leather pants were jerked up over her legs.
“There’s an ordinary world, somehow, I have to find”.
After a couple of minutes, she stood fully dressed, weapons concealed. Facing herself in the mirror. The only part that was not covered up yet, was her face.
“And as I try to make my way to the ordinary world... I will learn to survive”.
She slid the veil down over her neck and lower face, masking herself from the world.
As she turned off the string music and opened the door to the light of blinking neon, someone that cursed in a foreign language and the sound of a fight somewhere, she looked back over her shoulder.
“What has happened to it all? Crazy some would say... Where is the life that I recognize?”
Refira clapped her hands, leaving the apartment in darkness and locked the door.
Filtz awaited in the hangar where they had agreed to meet, checking the clock. The client was late…
Typical. She could have spent the time drinking more tea!
Leaning against the wall, crossing her arms, she tried to imagine what problem there had been. She took great pride in categorising her slaves. The pig better had a nice excuse for insulting her professional competency, or he could get a few additional slaps with the new deal for free!