Post by Casimir Goetschl on Feb 28, 2011 9:04:00 GMT -5
Name: Casimir Goetschl
Race: Humans
Age: Twenty-Two
Height: Six Feet One Inch
Weight: Casimir fluctuates in weight dramatically depending on his current mindset. When Goetschl is in a relatively calmed state of mind, more so in a non-depressive state, his weight is managed at around 200 to 210 pounds. Due to suffering from manic depression at times, he goes into stages of non-eating which often drops his weight into the 170 to low 180 pounds.
Appearance: Casimir's eyes are colored in light blue. His eyes do appear to be different shades of blue depending on the light in which he is present. When outside on a sunny, his eyes seem to be a deep blue, almost a light green while outside on a cloud day his eyes look grey. In artificial lighting, his true color is shown as a light blue. The color change is not an actual color change and is simply nothing more than the iris' reflection of the outside light. Casimir's hair is a natural blonde color though he tends to dye it a light brown. This is due to his natural light skin and simply finds the appearance more appealing to himself. With an overall light skinned appearance, he can often be simply glanced over as just another human. In many ways, in fact, this appeals greatly to his own personality. When it comes to Casimir's sense of style and general public appearance, the ordinary is usually the best. Jeans, generic shirts, basic boots or shoes are often what he adornes. Very rarely does Casimir ever attempt to try and dress in a more professional manner which would include suits and tuxedo's. The man simply does not wear what he does not feel comfortable in.
Personality: Casimir Goetschl’s mental status has often been questioned, though not in an entirely negative fashion. Throughout the majority of his life, Goetschl has suffered from bout’s of manic depression. The severe bout’s began in his adolescence and resulted in severe periods of depression and then manic happiness. This drastic change in the mentality, which would last for months on end, did not go unnoticed by his family. When taken to see his pediatrician, it was explained that the Manic Depressive state is not a cause due to some psychological trauma suffered by an unusual event in Casimir’s life but an adverse reaction to a genetic abnormality. Due to the Goetschl bloodline which consists of a high inbreeding rate, the chemicals in Casimir’s brain are slightly alter enough to routinely effect his personality. The inbreeding, a Goetschl family necessity to continue on the line, had shown no serious adverse reactions until Goetschl and it was with Casimir that the family was force to understand the implications of their ideology of line purification.
Due to the manic depression that Goetschl suffers, his mind began to alter further, evolving a new disability known as obsessive compulsive disorder right around the time of puberty. This obsessive compulsive nature rooted itself into a mental aspect. Everything about his immediate environment had to be set up his way. His home was organized how he had it, his clothing folded a specific way, dished washed a certain way; his day became a routine. This later added on a sense of germaphobia as Casimir began to vigorously avoid any and all dirty situations. This added into his structured daily routine of specified times of hand and body washing, how he prepared his food and how he cleaned his immediate environment. This germaphobia also altered his perceptions of food as Goetschl would not eat foods that had not been prepared by himself or a family member specifically. This was due to his mistrust in other people; especially when dealing with something as sensitive as what he puts into his body.
Casimir holds a fierce loyalty to his family. It has been instilled into him that starting from a young age, members of the family can only truly trust another Goetschl. His family believes that relying on somebody else for any sort of support would be a form of heresy and in a way of ensuring Goetschl loyalty, the inbreeding aspect was instituted. This loyalty goes to a depth in which Casimir would lay his life down in the protection of not just any particular family member but the family name itself. On a personal level, Goetschl respects those who are insightful over those who are flamboyant and ignorant. He will help anyone in need though will only take it as far as the immediate situation at hand. He holds no true friends nor confidants outside the family, though if someone was capable of understanding his complex mental state, perhaps he could open up and allow a non-Goetschl in.
Birth place: Ple City of Dantella IV
Faction: Sith
Rank: Initiate
Previous Faction: None
Previous Rank: None
Bio:
The planet of Dantella IV, a modest, more middle class planet thrived for centuries, living off its own natural resources and the planets natural skill of working out trades and deals with nearby systems. No one with the exception of the politicians were grossly wealthy and most people survived with a modest income. Among the populace were a young married couple, Joseph and Maria Goetschl. Both were well known pharmaceutical scientists who owned their own private company as well as a chain of pharmacies within Ple City. When the pair received financial independence they began to try for children and almost instantly were blessed with Casimir. The pregnancy was routine and very text book. At each stage Maria was where she needed to be. Casimir grew healthy within her womb and as a result Maria remained healthy herself. When the birth came Maria retired from the stores to remain a stay at home mother, following the Goetschl tradition of nurturing and guiding the next generation of family. They offered Casimir the best of what they could get. Within their home they spared no extra expense and used it to ensure the safety and continued growth of their young infant. As Casimir grew through his first year, he astonished his parents at how quickly he could walk and talk. He showed an inquisitive nature and even seemed to understand what his parents would say to him at a faster rate than most children his age. The young Goetschl had become the child of any parents dreams.
As Casimir passed through his adolescence, it became apparent early on that he was different. Though he was capable of socializing and getting along with other people, Casimir showed signs that he might not be on the same mental wavelength as other children. Extremely bright in nearly every subject at school, Goetschl was within the top five percent of his classes yet he seemed to show fits of emotional unrest, going from a severely depressed state that would randomly come about to fits of outright happiness and joy. This roller coaster mentality forced his parents to seek outside medical assistance where it was revealed that the root cause was manic depression that was brought on by genetic abnormalities.
It was here that Joseph and Maria explained the Goetschl family in deeper detail with their son. The genetic abnormality, surprising to be the first in the family, was a result of the inbreeding of the Goetschls. Due to family history in which the Goetschl Family felt as though they could not truly rely on anyone except themselves, they eventually turned inward for solidarity and family purification. For generations, the Goetschls only mated with, married, and bred with other Goetschls. So long as their lineage could be traced back through the family, they were deemed worthy to continue the line.
The fact that Casimir showed mental abnormalities because of this inbreeding still did not bring about a change and Goetschl himself was raised under the belief that he needed to find and to marry a woman within the family. His childhood overall and into his teens and young adulthood remained relatively quiet. During highschool, Casimir geared his own education towards the scientific aspect, preparing to follow in his parents footsteps, however his struggling with mathematics proved to be a problem. With his math grades suffering with a barely passable mark, Casimir understood that he would not be able to follow in his parents footsteps. Instead, Goetschl enrolled into the Emergency Medical Technician Program at Ple City University Medical Center, the same University his Parents recieved their Medical Degrees.
At the same time of his enrollment, Casimir grew closer to Gabrielle Goetschl, his second cousin and it was here that his family pushed for a union between the two, feeling that now was the time for both Casimir and Gabrielle to settle down and bring about a new generation of Goetschl onto Dantella. As the two continued to bond, Goetschl eventually did propose to his second cousin but the young couple agreed to wait until Casimir was done with his training before any marriage would take place. Throughout his training, Casimir showed unrivaled ability in both preparedness and response time to outside stimuli. His scores topped the class which granted him an immediate pass into the Paramedic program, to which Goetschl instantly pounced upon. It was this advancement into the next program that pushed off the union to Gabrielle by another year, yet both understood the importance of Casimir's current training and the stability the job would mean for their family.
During his final year of the Paramedic Training, Casimir and his partner was called to the scene of a massive speeder accident in the heart of Emery City, Dantella IV's Capital. When Goetschl arrived and began to treat the victims, he was quick to recognize one of the speeders as Gabrielles. His partner, Paramedic Michael Reichman held Goetschl back as other Medics on scene began to treat a now unconscious Gabrielle whom had been flung from the front seat upon being hit from behind and forced to smash into a street lamp in front of her. Goetschl could do nothing as the Medics on scene did all they could to try and revive her, though ultimately to no avail.
In the aftermath of Gabrielles death, Goetschl went into a severe depressive state which ultimately led to his decision to leave Dantella in need of a break from his home, his people and the painful memories. Unsure of where he would go, what he would do, or how he would survive, Casimir simply boarded a passenger cruiser aimed for the middle rim and decided to allow fate to take control...
Lightsaber: None
Color: None
Practiced Lightsaber forms:
Shii-Cho: Not Applicable at the present time.
Makashi: Not Applicable at the present time.
Soresu: Not Applicable at the present time.
Ataru: Not Applicable at the present time.
Shien / Djem So: Not Applicable at the present time.
>>Sub-form Backhanded
Niman: Not Applicable at the present time.
>>Sub-form Jar-kai, or Dual Wield
Juyo: Not Applicable at the present time.
Double Bladed Combat: Not Applicable at the present time.
Force-Sensitive Abilities or practices:
Telekinetic: 4
Telepathic: 4
Body: 3
Sense: 3
Protection: 3
Healing: 3
Destruction: 3
Specialized Skills: Goetschl was trained from an early age to become an exceptional cook in his family. Raised in a predominately matriarchal structure, it was instilled into Casimir that cooking and cleaning were not just for women. Through years of training under his mother, aunt's, and grandparents, Goetschls skills in the kitchen became unrivaled within the family. Perhaps the biggest reason as to why he became the top chef within the family was due to his obsessive compulsive disorder which lead to him developing severe organization and cleanliness abilities. Goetschl keeps everything organized in such a manner that anyone assisting him in the kitchen is capable of finding any ingredient he asks for. When dealing with him home, nothing is every put out of place and the man routinely cleans the entire premises an average of every two days. It is because of his organizational skills and severe need to be in a clean environment that he developed a sense of self motivation. This self-motivation is the root of his internal drive, a factor which is apparent in the fact that he does not need to be asked to do something. If a task needs accomplishing, Goetschl will more often than not do it; though this is also dependent on his state of mind at the time.
Attributes:
STRONG:
Courageous
Decisive
Determined
Focused
Honest
Humble
Mature
Punctual
Precise
Realistic
WEAK:
Apprehensive
Insecure
Rebellious
Distant
Pessimistic
Unlucky
Conservative
Low Self-Esteem
Untrusting
Nervous
Physical Strength: 5
Intelligence: 7
Speed: 7
Leadership: 4
Unarmed: 5
Melee Weapons: 5
Ranged Weapons: 5
Force Attunement: Not Applicable at the present time.
RP Sample:
Warning: Matured Content Below.
Casimir walked over to the tub and ran his finger tips across the still, yet warm water. His mind was still a mess. Memories of his lover continued to fill his uneasy. Gabrielle’s horrific accident, the speeder crash that had claimed her life mixed with the knowledge that he had not been the one whom had tried to save her, all of it simply ate away at the instability of his psyche’, the instability that had always been a part of him. Climbing into the tub, his migraine made its fifth comeback of the past two days. His eyes throbbed and his head ached but none of it actually mattered anymore. The warm water stung his hand, which had been lacerated by the broken glass from the speeder accident. He slowly lowered the rest of his body in, letting the water rise to his collar bone before the mans feet pressed against the far end and brought his decent to a stop. Casimir laid his head back and turned his glance to a small razor blade, which rested on the side of the tub. Closing his eyes, he took several deep breaths, 'Clear my mind…'. Casimir needed a clearer mind than he currently had, a mind focused on the single task at hand.
Quietly the man opened his eyes and slightly lifted his head, his eyes locking on both wrists.. For years he had served his people, his family. Everything he ever did was never just for himself. First responders were trained to put the needs of others before themselves and yet when push came to shove, whom was ever there for them? First Responders were much like war vets; eventually society ignored each and every one of them, turning their collective backs on the mental and physical pressures that such jobs presented. It was with a sudden rush of irritation and anger with himself that Goetschl took the blade and pressed it against his left wrist. Goetschl knew the human body better than most people; he knew the arteries, the veins, capillaries, tendons and ligaments. Who would have ever thought that knowledge taught to a man in order to protect people would inevitably be used to extinguish that same mans life?
There were signs that alerted anyone to a potential suicide risk. If these signs went untreated or undiagnosed or even if outside factors had an impact, a person would progress to the next sign. Much like the famous twelve step program of alcoholics, suicidal people progressed through steps, but the progression was towards a downward, self destructive manner. The first step or sign was depression. An altered mental state usually caused by sadness, grief, loneliness or anger. Casimir possessed all four signs. The second step was a plan. If a patient had a specific plan of how they planned to hurt themselves, the suicide attempt was imminent. Based on the detail Casimir put into this plan on how and when to do this, it showed that sooner or later it was going to happen. The third step is high or current stress levels, which is followed by step four of recent emotional trauma. For Casimir, step three and four were combined. The identification of of himself as the man that could have saved Gabrielle or at least tried, albeit shortsighted and wrong, mixed with his his inability to do anything about it propelled his plan forward, to this evening. The time had come.
‘I miss her.' Casimir thought to himself, tears finally coming forth as he stared at Gabrielles engagement ring. He thought of the person, he thought longingly of her, 'Forgive me.’
He turned his attention to his wrists, the blade still pressed to his left wrist. As it slowly began its horizontal motion against his flesh, the man let out a scream. The scream was unnatural, almost eerie. Casimir had never screamed like this before, of course he had never caused himself so much trauma physically. The pain was intense as the cut itself was deeper than he had anticipated, much deeper. The blade first punctured the skin, tearing through all several layers of human flesh before it punctured the first of thirteen thin capillaries. Blood oozed for a brief second before the blade slid across the three main veinous branches in the anterior wrist. Maroon blood poured from the wrist, mixing with the red of the capillary blood. A numbing sensation immediately took effect. As the blade continued through its motion it punctured the anti-brachial arteries causing massive spurts of blood to fly up and outwards. Blood splattered the side of the tub, hitting the floor though most of the blood now filled the once clear bath water. The water turned a light pink as more blood continued to flow through. The pain was nearly unbearable as Casimir realized he sliced through the two main ligaments that gave the wrist movement, the volar radio-carpal ligament that helped the fingers grip and the smaller radial collateral ligament that gave the thumb its motions. More blood continued to pour; mixes of spurts, ooze and steady flows came forth. Casimir felt his muscles weaken, showing a physical sign that the muscle just above the ligament has been torn. He lost all motion in his hand, a bad sign if he intended to cut the other wrist. Casimir cried out, and slammed his head against the back of the tub. He saw colors, white, purple and green, a sign that there could be a small concussion about to form from the slam. Memories of his family filled his mind.
His hand did throb, a sign his heart was trying to pump more blood to the extremity sensing a drop in blood pressure at that area. His fingers became tingling and began to turn blue then pale, a sign that his fingers were no longer getting the much needed oxygen rich blood the arteries brought. He let the wrist drop into the water, a splash of deep red flung up and out of the tub and again onto the now soaked floor. He screamed yet again, louder than before as the warm water flooded the wound and smashed into the torn flesh and muscle. His upper arm pounded, showing the brachial artery was desperate to keep blood flowing to the now insensible fingers.
Casimir looked at his hand, as the blood began to darken the water even further. It was intriguing to him in a way. Such a small part of the human body, when cut, would lead to a human's death. A person could take a shot to the chest or brain and still survive yet a slice across the wrist would lead to death within twenty minutes if left untreated. He bit his lip hard as spurts of sharp pain in the wrist continued every four seconds. His right hand still gripped the blade. His left was useless and unable to hold anything. The man resorted to an impromptu idea. Goetschl placed the blade in-between his lower and upper front teeth and bit down firmly. The cold steel felt odd but he still held on. His head was now nearly lightheaded and a vague fogginess was slowly beginning to set in but he knew that as it stood right now, this wasn't complete. Casimir lifted his right wrist. He pressed his right wrist firmly against the blade, tears still rolling from his eyes, the tubs water now a bright red as the last of the clear was removed.
It was in the moment of a held breath that the blade slid across his flesh. Casimir dropped the blade from his teeth, which now fell harmlessly into the magenta red water. The man screamed louder than before. He slammed his head viciously against the back of the tub, causing a crack to appear in the tile.
Blood spurted out across Casimirs face as the anterior wrist faced him. This cut was much deeper than the left wrist. The wrist slid across in a much faster motion than the left had. Within a tenth of a second the cut was over. Oozing, flow and spurts poured out across Casimir. His gagged as much of the blood found its way into his mouth from the initial outward squirts. The tendons and muscles tore and contracted, his fingers lost all feeling, his veins, arteries and capillaries all became desperate to keep blood going, his body thinking a continuous pumping would save his life.
It was not long before darkness began to seep in, his eyelids getting to the point that they could not longer remain over. Within seconds, the closed and the bathroom, his home… everything seemed to simply disappear.
Sleep was good… was it not?
Race: Humans
Age: Twenty-Two
Height: Six Feet One Inch
Weight: Casimir fluctuates in weight dramatically depending on his current mindset. When Goetschl is in a relatively calmed state of mind, more so in a non-depressive state, his weight is managed at around 200 to 210 pounds. Due to suffering from manic depression at times, he goes into stages of non-eating which often drops his weight into the 170 to low 180 pounds.
Appearance: Casimir's eyes are colored in light blue. His eyes do appear to be different shades of blue depending on the light in which he is present. When outside on a sunny, his eyes seem to be a deep blue, almost a light green while outside on a cloud day his eyes look grey. In artificial lighting, his true color is shown as a light blue. The color change is not an actual color change and is simply nothing more than the iris' reflection of the outside light. Casimir's hair is a natural blonde color though he tends to dye it a light brown. This is due to his natural light skin and simply finds the appearance more appealing to himself. With an overall light skinned appearance, he can often be simply glanced over as just another human. In many ways, in fact, this appeals greatly to his own personality. When it comes to Casimir's sense of style and general public appearance, the ordinary is usually the best. Jeans, generic shirts, basic boots or shoes are often what he adornes. Very rarely does Casimir ever attempt to try and dress in a more professional manner which would include suits and tuxedo's. The man simply does not wear what he does not feel comfortable in.
Personality: Casimir Goetschl’s mental status has often been questioned, though not in an entirely negative fashion. Throughout the majority of his life, Goetschl has suffered from bout’s of manic depression. The severe bout’s began in his adolescence and resulted in severe periods of depression and then manic happiness. This drastic change in the mentality, which would last for months on end, did not go unnoticed by his family. When taken to see his pediatrician, it was explained that the Manic Depressive state is not a cause due to some psychological trauma suffered by an unusual event in Casimir’s life but an adverse reaction to a genetic abnormality. Due to the Goetschl bloodline which consists of a high inbreeding rate, the chemicals in Casimir’s brain are slightly alter enough to routinely effect his personality. The inbreeding, a Goetschl family necessity to continue on the line, had shown no serious adverse reactions until Goetschl and it was with Casimir that the family was force to understand the implications of their ideology of line purification.
Due to the manic depression that Goetschl suffers, his mind began to alter further, evolving a new disability known as obsessive compulsive disorder right around the time of puberty. This obsessive compulsive nature rooted itself into a mental aspect. Everything about his immediate environment had to be set up his way. His home was organized how he had it, his clothing folded a specific way, dished washed a certain way; his day became a routine. This later added on a sense of germaphobia as Casimir began to vigorously avoid any and all dirty situations. This added into his structured daily routine of specified times of hand and body washing, how he prepared his food and how he cleaned his immediate environment. This germaphobia also altered his perceptions of food as Goetschl would not eat foods that had not been prepared by himself or a family member specifically. This was due to his mistrust in other people; especially when dealing with something as sensitive as what he puts into his body.
Casimir holds a fierce loyalty to his family. It has been instilled into him that starting from a young age, members of the family can only truly trust another Goetschl. His family believes that relying on somebody else for any sort of support would be a form of heresy and in a way of ensuring Goetschl loyalty, the inbreeding aspect was instituted. This loyalty goes to a depth in which Casimir would lay his life down in the protection of not just any particular family member but the family name itself. On a personal level, Goetschl respects those who are insightful over those who are flamboyant and ignorant. He will help anyone in need though will only take it as far as the immediate situation at hand. He holds no true friends nor confidants outside the family, though if someone was capable of understanding his complex mental state, perhaps he could open up and allow a non-Goetschl in.
Birth place: Ple City of Dantella IV
Faction: Sith
Rank: Initiate
Previous Faction: None
Previous Rank: None
Bio:
The planet of Dantella IV, a modest, more middle class planet thrived for centuries, living off its own natural resources and the planets natural skill of working out trades and deals with nearby systems. No one with the exception of the politicians were grossly wealthy and most people survived with a modest income. Among the populace were a young married couple, Joseph and Maria Goetschl. Both were well known pharmaceutical scientists who owned their own private company as well as a chain of pharmacies within Ple City. When the pair received financial independence they began to try for children and almost instantly were blessed with Casimir. The pregnancy was routine and very text book. At each stage Maria was where she needed to be. Casimir grew healthy within her womb and as a result Maria remained healthy herself. When the birth came Maria retired from the stores to remain a stay at home mother, following the Goetschl tradition of nurturing and guiding the next generation of family. They offered Casimir the best of what they could get. Within their home they spared no extra expense and used it to ensure the safety and continued growth of their young infant. As Casimir grew through his first year, he astonished his parents at how quickly he could walk and talk. He showed an inquisitive nature and even seemed to understand what his parents would say to him at a faster rate than most children his age. The young Goetschl had become the child of any parents dreams.
As Casimir passed through his adolescence, it became apparent early on that he was different. Though he was capable of socializing and getting along with other people, Casimir showed signs that he might not be on the same mental wavelength as other children. Extremely bright in nearly every subject at school, Goetschl was within the top five percent of his classes yet he seemed to show fits of emotional unrest, going from a severely depressed state that would randomly come about to fits of outright happiness and joy. This roller coaster mentality forced his parents to seek outside medical assistance where it was revealed that the root cause was manic depression that was brought on by genetic abnormalities.
It was here that Joseph and Maria explained the Goetschl family in deeper detail with their son. The genetic abnormality, surprising to be the first in the family, was a result of the inbreeding of the Goetschls. Due to family history in which the Goetschl Family felt as though they could not truly rely on anyone except themselves, they eventually turned inward for solidarity and family purification. For generations, the Goetschls only mated with, married, and bred with other Goetschls. So long as their lineage could be traced back through the family, they were deemed worthy to continue the line.
The fact that Casimir showed mental abnormalities because of this inbreeding still did not bring about a change and Goetschl himself was raised under the belief that he needed to find and to marry a woman within the family. His childhood overall and into his teens and young adulthood remained relatively quiet. During highschool, Casimir geared his own education towards the scientific aspect, preparing to follow in his parents footsteps, however his struggling with mathematics proved to be a problem. With his math grades suffering with a barely passable mark, Casimir understood that he would not be able to follow in his parents footsteps. Instead, Goetschl enrolled into the Emergency Medical Technician Program at Ple City University Medical Center, the same University his Parents recieved their Medical Degrees.
At the same time of his enrollment, Casimir grew closer to Gabrielle Goetschl, his second cousin and it was here that his family pushed for a union between the two, feeling that now was the time for both Casimir and Gabrielle to settle down and bring about a new generation of Goetschl onto Dantella. As the two continued to bond, Goetschl eventually did propose to his second cousin but the young couple agreed to wait until Casimir was done with his training before any marriage would take place. Throughout his training, Casimir showed unrivaled ability in both preparedness and response time to outside stimuli. His scores topped the class which granted him an immediate pass into the Paramedic program, to which Goetschl instantly pounced upon. It was this advancement into the next program that pushed off the union to Gabrielle by another year, yet both understood the importance of Casimir's current training and the stability the job would mean for their family.
During his final year of the Paramedic Training, Casimir and his partner was called to the scene of a massive speeder accident in the heart of Emery City, Dantella IV's Capital. When Goetschl arrived and began to treat the victims, he was quick to recognize one of the speeders as Gabrielles. His partner, Paramedic Michael Reichman held Goetschl back as other Medics on scene began to treat a now unconscious Gabrielle whom had been flung from the front seat upon being hit from behind and forced to smash into a street lamp in front of her. Goetschl could do nothing as the Medics on scene did all they could to try and revive her, though ultimately to no avail.
In the aftermath of Gabrielles death, Goetschl went into a severe depressive state which ultimately led to his decision to leave Dantella in need of a break from his home, his people and the painful memories. Unsure of where he would go, what he would do, or how he would survive, Casimir simply boarded a passenger cruiser aimed for the middle rim and decided to allow fate to take control...
Lightsaber: None
Color: None
Practiced Lightsaber forms:
Shii-Cho: Not Applicable at the present time.
Makashi: Not Applicable at the present time.
Soresu: Not Applicable at the present time.
Ataru: Not Applicable at the present time.
Shien / Djem So: Not Applicable at the present time.
>>Sub-form Backhanded
Niman: Not Applicable at the present time.
>>Sub-form Jar-kai, or Dual Wield
Juyo: Not Applicable at the present time.
Double Bladed Combat: Not Applicable at the present time.
Force-Sensitive Abilities or practices:
Telekinetic: 4
Telepathic: 4
Body: 3
Sense: 3
Protection: 3
Healing: 3
Destruction: 3
Specialized Skills: Goetschl was trained from an early age to become an exceptional cook in his family. Raised in a predominately matriarchal structure, it was instilled into Casimir that cooking and cleaning were not just for women. Through years of training under his mother, aunt's, and grandparents, Goetschls skills in the kitchen became unrivaled within the family. Perhaps the biggest reason as to why he became the top chef within the family was due to his obsessive compulsive disorder which lead to him developing severe organization and cleanliness abilities. Goetschl keeps everything organized in such a manner that anyone assisting him in the kitchen is capable of finding any ingredient he asks for. When dealing with him home, nothing is every put out of place and the man routinely cleans the entire premises an average of every two days. It is because of his organizational skills and severe need to be in a clean environment that he developed a sense of self motivation. This self-motivation is the root of his internal drive, a factor which is apparent in the fact that he does not need to be asked to do something. If a task needs accomplishing, Goetschl will more often than not do it; though this is also dependent on his state of mind at the time.
Attributes:
STRONG:
Courageous
Decisive
Determined
Focused
Honest
Humble
Mature
Punctual
Precise
Realistic
WEAK:
Apprehensive
Insecure
Rebellious
Distant
Pessimistic
Unlucky
Conservative
Low Self-Esteem
Untrusting
Nervous
Physical Strength: 5
Intelligence: 7
Speed: 7
Leadership: 4
Unarmed: 5
Melee Weapons: 5
Ranged Weapons: 5
Force Attunement: Not Applicable at the present time.
RP Sample:
Warning: Matured Content Below.
Casimir walked over to the tub and ran his finger tips across the still, yet warm water. His mind was still a mess. Memories of his lover continued to fill his uneasy. Gabrielle’s horrific accident, the speeder crash that had claimed her life mixed with the knowledge that he had not been the one whom had tried to save her, all of it simply ate away at the instability of his psyche’, the instability that had always been a part of him. Climbing into the tub, his migraine made its fifth comeback of the past two days. His eyes throbbed and his head ached but none of it actually mattered anymore. The warm water stung his hand, which had been lacerated by the broken glass from the speeder accident. He slowly lowered the rest of his body in, letting the water rise to his collar bone before the mans feet pressed against the far end and brought his decent to a stop. Casimir laid his head back and turned his glance to a small razor blade, which rested on the side of the tub. Closing his eyes, he took several deep breaths, 'Clear my mind…'. Casimir needed a clearer mind than he currently had, a mind focused on the single task at hand.
Quietly the man opened his eyes and slightly lifted his head, his eyes locking on both wrists.. For years he had served his people, his family. Everything he ever did was never just for himself. First responders were trained to put the needs of others before themselves and yet when push came to shove, whom was ever there for them? First Responders were much like war vets; eventually society ignored each and every one of them, turning their collective backs on the mental and physical pressures that such jobs presented. It was with a sudden rush of irritation and anger with himself that Goetschl took the blade and pressed it against his left wrist. Goetschl knew the human body better than most people; he knew the arteries, the veins, capillaries, tendons and ligaments. Who would have ever thought that knowledge taught to a man in order to protect people would inevitably be used to extinguish that same mans life?
There were signs that alerted anyone to a potential suicide risk. If these signs went untreated or undiagnosed or even if outside factors had an impact, a person would progress to the next sign. Much like the famous twelve step program of alcoholics, suicidal people progressed through steps, but the progression was towards a downward, self destructive manner. The first step or sign was depression. An altered mental state usually caused by sadness, grief, loneliness or anger. Casimir possessed all four signs. The second step was a plan. If a patient had a specific plan of how they planned to hurt themselves, the suicide attempt was imminent. Based on the detail Casimir put into this plan on how and when to do this, it showed that sooner or later it was going to happen. The third step is high or current stress levels, which is followed by step four of recent emotional trauma. For Casimir, step three and four were combined. The identification of of himself as the man that could have saved Gabrielle or at least tried, albeit shortsighted and wrong, mixed with his his inability to do anything about it propelled his plan forward, to this evening. The time had come.
‘I miss her.' Casimir thought to himself, tears finally coming forth as he stared at Gabrielles engagement ring. He thought of the person, he thought longingly of her, 'Forgive me.’
He turned his attention to his wrists, the blade still pressed to his left wrist. As it slowly began its horizontal motion against his flesh, the man let out a scream. The scream was unnatural, almost eerie. Casimir had never screamed like this before, of course he had never caused himself so much trauma physically. The pain was intense as the cut itself was deeper than he had anticipated, much deeper. The blade first punctured the skin, tearing through all several layers of human flesh before it punctured the first of thirteen thin capillaries. Blood oozed for a brief second before the blade slid across the three main veinous branches in the anterior wrist. Maroon blood poured from the wrist, mixing with the red of the capillary blood. A numbing sensation immediately took effect. As the blade continued through its motion it punctured the anti-brachial arteries causing massive spurts of blood to fly up and outwards. Blood splattered the side of the tub, hitting the floor though most of the blood now filled the once clear bath water. The water turned a light pink as more blood continued to flow through. The pain was nearly unbearable as Casimir realized he sliced through the two main ligaments that gave the wrist movement, the volar radio-carpal ligament that helped the fingers grip and the smaller radial collateral ligament that gave the thumb its motions. More blood continued to pour; mixes of spurts, ooze and steady flows came forth. Casimir felt his muscles weaken, showing a physical sign that the muscle just above the ligament has been torn. He lost all motion in his hand, a bad sign if he intended to cut the other wrist. Casimir cried out, and slammed his head against the back of the tub. He saw colors, white, purple and green, a sign that there could be a small concussion about to form from the slam. Memories of his family filled his mind.
His hand did throb, a sign his heart was trying to pump more blood to the extremity sensing a drop in blood pressure at that area. His fingers became tingling and began to turn blue then pale, a sign that his fingers were no longer getting the much needed oxygen rich blood the arteries brought. He let the wrist drop into the water, a splash of deep red flung up and out of the tub and again onto the now soaked floor. He screamed yet again, louder than before as the warm water flooded the wound and smashed into the torn flesh and muscle. His upper arm pounded, showing the brachial artery was desperate to keep blood flowing to the now insensible fingers.
Casimir looked at his hand, as the blood began to darken the water even further. It was intriguing to him in a way. Such a small part of the human body, when cut, would lead to a human's death. A person could take a shot to the chest or brain and still survive yet a slice across the wrist would lead to death within twenty minutes if left untreated. He bit his lip hard as spurts of sharp pain in the wrist continued every four seconds. His right hand still gripped the blade. His left was useless and unable to hold anything. The man resorted to an impromptu idea. Goetschl placed the blade in-between his lower and upper front teeth and bit down firmly. The cold steel felt odd but he still held on. His head was now nearly lightheaded and a vague fogginess was slowly beginning to set in but he knew that as it stood right now, this wasn't complete. Casimir lifted his right wrist. He pressed his right wrist firmly against the blade, tears still rolling from his eyes, the tubs water now a bright red as the last of the clear was removed.
It was in the moment of a held breath that the blade slid across his flesh. Casimir dropped the blade from his teeth, which now fell harmlessly into the magenta red water. The man screamed louder than before. He slammed his head viciously against the back of the tub, causing a crack to appear in the tile.
Blood spurted out across Casimirs face as the anterior wrist faced him. This cut was much deeper than the left wrist. The wrist slid across in a much faster motion than the left had. Within a tenth of a second the cut was over. Oozing, flow and spurts poured out across Casimir. His gagged as much of the blood found its way into his mouth from the initial outward squirts. The tendons and muscles tore and contracted, his fingers lost all feeling, his veins, arteries and capillaries all became desperate to keep blood going, his body thinking a continuous pumping would save his life.
It was not long before darkness began to seep in, his eyelids getting to the point that they could not longer remain over. Within seconds, the closed and the bathroom, his home… everything seemed to simply disappear.
Sleep was good… was it not?
