Charlie Sharper
The Elder and Unaccomplished
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Sept 6, 2011 17:11:12 GMT -5
Post by Charlie Sharper on Sept 6, 2011 17:11:12 GMT -5
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Charlie Sharper
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Sept 7, 2011 16:53:20 GMT -5
Post by Charlie Sharper on Sept 7, 2011 16:53:20 GMT -5
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Charlie Sharper
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Sept 13, 2011 16:09:07 GMT -5
Post by Charlie Sharper on Sept 13, 2011 16:09:07 GMT -5
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Charlie Sharper
The Elder and Unaccomplished
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May 18, 2013 19:50:40 GMT -5
Post by Charlie Sharper on May 18, 2013 19:50:40 GMT -5
I figure I can update this since I'm back, officially (3rd or 4th time in so many months) but I digress, I am still back and THIS TIME IT'S PERSONAL!!! but again, I am back none-the-less...Well, what to say, I could do the usual music drop, but I feel like 'If it's in the blog section...BLOG YOU IDIOT!' *Says the man who can't spell idiot, (( Still isn't sure that's correct)) ). So to sum up the past few months in a few words it's been disappointing but enlightening. Now that I try to piece it together I can't really think of what to actually say. First of all, I lost a wonderful job because of my mental breakdown, which wasn't fun, but duh, of course it would suck. I mean, it wasn't the perfect job, but still, it would have been a professional job that I didn't completely hate...well, I did hate it a lot, but it's one of those times where you ask yourself if you just freaked out because life was going bad, or if it was actually going well.. It's times like these that you have to examine what your motivations are, what you really want out of life. When that question scares the crap out of you, then you kinda have the answer too I suppose. But I'd like to think that I can do better, that life isn't so hard that I just have to grow colder to deal with it, maybe and hopefully you just haven't found something good for you yet. As I sit here typing and listening to music that makes me hopeful, I wonder what choices I made that were wrong, and if they really were that wrong... I mean, leaving for lunch from the same company my dad worked for only to never come back can definitely be chalked up as a bad decision, yeah. But was I really ever going to be happy there? I mean, I wasn't, so why would doing what's expected really be a good idea... I can track a long list of bad ideas in my life, among them would be things as small as speeding to as big as nearly marrying a girl who would rather buy weed then feed her kids... It's just that my whole life has been usually defined by the mistakes I made during that time, and to say it (my life) is basically a train wreck would be putting it lightly. There comes a point where you wonder if you are ever going to get anywhere at all, if it's worth waking up at all just to make the same mistakes you've always made, but it's these times you have to pick to just that, or else you will only fall down again. You have to keep pushing, keep going, cause if you aren't, you've stopped caring about seeing the good in life. My friend just had a baby and she's the coolest baby alive in my opinion, and when I wave at her, she lights up and laughs. It's times like that when you say there's got to be something more then being a college drop out with no prospects, friends, or hope. It's times like these that you pick yourself up and dust off you're shoulders and jump back in the fire. Because the moral of the story is pretty bleak if seen in the wrong light. The meaning of life is to keep going, sometimes that means if you stop trying, it'll leave you behind, but that can also mean that no matter what happens, you can always start again, and keep pushing forward. It's a time like this that you have to just look at what could be, and not what is. Because things happen, everyone falls from time to time. Life isn't a race, but a journey, like the band. If you fall down, you just have to keep getting back up, because the falls don't matter in the end, just how far you got. So in closing, the defense would like to say this, never stop trying, never stop moving forward, because life is too short and too brutal to miss the beauty in it. I mean, life can be pretty good as long as you don't stop trying to make it better...And that's all I'm trying to say.. Song for the post |
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