Post by Jace on Feb 26, 2010 12:47:00 GMT -5
Well ive never really blogged before, and like others wasn't really a big fan of it. Yet now I feel that it may not be such a bad idea to put some of my thoughts in writing. Its up to whoever bothers to read this, whether they want to respond or not.
So as the title suggests, my main 'problem' is a result of my lack of motivation. Throughout my relatively short life, I have always heard the same thing from my teachers/parents/relatives....I have the potential but I just don't put in the effort. Essentially I am a chronic underachiever. Of course as I stated earlier, this is due to my lack of motivation. I initially thought that it was something I would grow out of in college, but apparently that isn't the case. It isn't that I am doing horrible in college but nowhere near as good as I can be doing. Even as I type this, I have an exam within the next hour that I will undoubtedly do horrible on. Why? cause I was lazy and decided to have fun instead of working my ass off. Is that immature or just being rational? Society tells me its just me being immature...sometimes im not so sure.
I have always known the reason for my lack of motivation, but have no means to change it. In truth, I am for the most part uninterested in the current world we live in...borderline on disgust. Yeah it has its good moments but for the most part, I am unhappy with it. This is probably why I am quite interested in History. I have always held great respect for the past, especially those times where warrior culture/war was a part of everyday life. Where there was a constant sense of honor,unity, and brotherhood. I just don't see that in our time. I only see, work and do whatever is necessary to make the most money. Yeah it sounds cheesy, but its what I believe.
Thus I find myself split on two different paths. One path is just be lazy/be myself and just go along life doing that...will I be successful?almost certainly not. Does that fact bother me? honestly I am not sure. The other path is something ive always given thought to but maybe not taking as seriously as I do now. That is joining the military. The one place I feel that some sort of honor and camaraderie can be obtained. The reason I have never taken it too seriously is due to my constitution. Skinny, glasses, and asthma...its not exactly the typical image of a military man. Suffice to say, ill be thinking on it more as I get closer to graduating.
Well class is about to end so I must be going now, but maybe ill touch upon other things at a later time.
So as the title suggests, my main 'problem' is a result of my lack of motivation. Throughout my relatively short life, I have always heard the same thing from my teachers/parents/relatives....I have the potential but I just don't put in the effort. Essentially I am a chronic underachiever. Of course as I stated earlier, this is due to my lack of motivation. I initially thought that it was something I would grow out of in college, but apparently that isn't the case. It isn't that I am doing horrible in college but nowhere near as good as I can be doing. Even as I type this, I have an exam within the next hour that I will undoubtedly do horrible on. Why? cause I was lazy and decided to have fun instead of working my ass off. Is that immature or just being rational? Society tells me its just me being immature...sometimes im not so sure.
I have always known the reason for my lack of motivation, but have no means to change it. In truth, I am for the most part uninterested in the current world we live in...borderline on disgust. Yeah it has its good moments but for the most part, I am unhappy with it. This is probably why I am quite interested in History. I have always held great respect for the past, especially those times where warrior culture/war was a part of everyday life. Where there was a constant sense of honor,unity, and brotherhood. I just don't see that in our time. I only see, work and do whatever is necessary to make the most money. Yeah it sounds cheesy, but its what I believe.
Thus I find myself split on two different paths. One path is just be lazy/be myself and just go along life doing that...will I be successful?almost certainly not. Does that fact bother me? honestly I am not sure. The other path is something ive always given thought to but maybe not taking as seriously as I do now. That is joining the military. The one place I feel that some sort of honor and camaraderie can be obtained. The reason I have never taken it too seriously is due to my constitution. Skinny, glasses, and asthma...its not exactly the typical image of a military man. Suffice to say, ill be thinking on it more as I get closer to graduating.
Well class is about to end so I must be going now, but maybe ill touch upon other things at a later time.
